On 11th October 2022, I was experiencing a difficult day, and it wasn’t because of the usual challengers. I had a realisation and came to the conclusion that what I was investing in had become a futile exercise as it was apparent that I should no longer engage. This was an incident that had struck a chord. Because of this truth, I wasn’t feeling great, although I had my usual game face on—you know, the cordial, polite, everyday smile—while inside I was experiencing a contrasting version of reality.
After my workday had ended, I rushed off to my happy place with the hope of blowing off some steam and in anticipation that the endorphins I would gain from exerting myself into physical activities would counter the intense emotions of despair that I’d been feeling since the night before post an unpleasant round of communication.
I pulled into the parking lot, got out of my car, and noticed another person walking in the same direction as I was, and they had suddenly caught my attention. It was surreal because in the exact moment when my eyes met theirs and it locked for a little, the disappointment I was feeling had immediately melted away. Unknowingly, this was the involuntary and immediate impact of their presence. “This is beyond unbelievable,” I had thought.
None-the-less, I went on my way as they did theirs, and that was that—a brief encounter that had induced the sense that all was well.
It has been more than 10 months since, and I see them about three times a week on average. We don’t speak or greet, and neither do we smile at each other—but we do glance. Sometimes we gaze for a few seconds, other times for longer, and at most, we walk in silent acknowledgement of each other's existence. A process that proves to be a sweet and somewhat distinctive nonverbal mannerism, which comprises cues that are only clear to the invisibility of the thread that mysteriously tends to connect us.
I wonder if there will be a murmur, a tangible exchange of sorts, who will attempt it first and how exactly it’ll occur, if ever. I do know that even if we are quiet and remain in complete stillness without anything happening for the rest of eternity, I secretly have no doubt that they are a special being.
This is a human who is there at a whim to miraculously shift my focus in any given moment—in fact, an angel who has the astonishing ability to captivate without saying a word.
Without saying a word by EJ for EJblogtv
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